An Author with horrible writing motivation

What can I say, when it comes to writing the ADHD brain tends to win when it comes to sitting down and writing out the stories that are in my head.

I like to think that my excuse of working my full time job prevents me from focusing on writing. Granted, you'll always hear me say that writing is my escape and my second job.

But with being an indie author comes challenges that I never thought would be an issue.

If you're wondering what I mean, I'm talking about the marketing of myself, my stories. That is including creative posting and making graphics to go onto social media. I never discredit the full time authors of this indie book world. The amount of hours that I see goes into selling their books including TikTok shop or other second selling system, making content to keep people interested, going to conventions throughout the year, plotting for a new book or two. It takes a lot and I feel I am doing it half speed.

But my weakness is that when I finally sit down to write, and I mean fully write at my desk and comfort zone, I look at the clock and see that I may have an hour or two to write or plot. While fitting in social life, family, self-care, and other things. I start to have imposter syndrome when thinking about my lack of motivation sometimes. When I finally sit at my desk, I blank because I start to think about all I need to do and when I try to think I can be ahead of the game. My mind spins and by the time I work, I look at the clock and make myself go to sleep. Then I get disappointed at any progress I made. I do this to myself, I know but our minds can be our protectors or our worst enemy and you have a certain strength for both sides.

I am not writing this to be "woe is me" but to say that I am still writing I am just at my own speed, hence why I don't have release dates. If I have done anything good for me this year it's that I have done nothing but plotting, writing down ideas, and working on drafts to be released in the coming years.

What am I currently writing?

Currently, I am working on my shared world first book, Hound Dog's Howl.

There is something special about this chapter of mine. One, it is an ode to the memory of my childhood growing up with family between Millington, Tennessee to Marion, Arkansas. Two, the road names of the bikers are nods to those legends from the city and the music or creative world. Three, while the men are no saints they are protectors of the creative souls who will never be taken advantage of in this cruel world.

I have been enjoying this story of my FMC and Hound Dog. The way he cares and protects his little songbird but ultimately would not want to bring her into his world. But he nor she can stay away.

They are my motivation, my promise to not give up and bring their story to life.

Well, my feisty readers, I am off for the night. Until we meet again.

Ever yours.